tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11515373.post115917060453032483..comments2023-09-22T01:20:19.281-07:00Comments on knot in the string: explanationS'meehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101359854973455791noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11515373.post-1159458289570369602006-09-28T08:44:00.000-07:002006-09-28T08:44:00.000-07:00The weird thing is this, when we blog, in our head...The weird thing is this, when we blog, in our head we are talking away in this or that voice. Then when someone reads it they hear it another way. When I write about all these things I am ususally in a good humour about them and somewhat ho hum if you will. I am way way way beyond the pity party stage and so I feel bad if ya'all ar worried...I am fine fine fine!(Big hint: If I am upset or angry I usually write "GRRRRRR!" otherwise I am just my goofy self)<BR/><BR/>Like I said before I am usually very happy and upbeat. Love the offspring, they love me, (hearing in my head some big burly black guy sayin' "can you feel the love baby?" in a deep deep voice. lol) It's all good! <BR/><BR/>Sorry if I worried anyone -no need to call the fire deptpartment the cat is already out of the tree!<BR/><BR/>Thanks, you guys are the best blog buddies!S'meehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12101359854973455791noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11515373.post-1159442497083024112006-09-28T04:21:00.000-07:002006-09-28T04:21:00.000-07:00I'm glad you expanded on that too. I've been thin...I'm glad you expanded on that too. I've been thinking about you guys a lot since.<BR/><BR/>Looking at your kids and their relationship to you shows the fruits of your motherhood. And by their fruits, you shall know them.....<BR/><BR/>I worry a lot about Reilly being scarred by his first few years. I do take comfort in the fact that he has been loved through it all and there has been no abuse--just really hard circumstances. His unrelenting health problems, but then my collapse. I was unable to be a mom in any way for the longest time. It rips my heart out to think about, so I don't. I pray that the Atonement will make up for the things that happened and where I lack. As a result, Reilly is a complete daddy's boy and I am glad he has his daddy and his grandparents and all of the other people that had to step in during that time. I pray that I can be there for the rest of his childhood.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11515373.post-1159419645258804122006-09-27T22:00:00.000-07:002006-09-27T22:00:00.000-07:00I am glad you elaborated on that. I was going to e...I am glad you elaborated on that. I was going to email you, but then thought I was being nosey, then got sick...<BR/>I think we all wanted The Clever's life. Being raised by a tyrannical single mom for many years, alchohols, crazy mean grandfathers and watching those shows at night, I thought I was the weirdest kid in the world until I went to college and realized my crazy life looked almost normal paired up to some of my friends! A relief, who know? I do know that my mom did the best she could with the tools she had and as I have told her many times when we are having these heart wrenching comfrontations about the past, I did not turn out so bad! She must have done something right. And I know my son will turn on my some day with his own set of accusations of how I was a feeble mom who let his grandmother cook every meal. I fully expect it....deserve it even. <BR/>But I do look back sometimes and think, would I be any different if .... would I have done more with my life if ... <BR/>I know you are wonderful, engaged, engaging. There is no way you could not be the greatest of moms!Kim Carneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02835737810295355817noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11515373.post-1159417526144813502006-09-27T21:25:00.000-07:002006-09-27T21:25:00.000-07:00I know you are a great mom!!! A person should alwa...I know you are a great mom!!! A person should always aim to be better than what they see around them even if what surrounds them looks like perfection!The Peahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18193213911386473386noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11515373.post-1159396069571540582006-09-27T15:27:00.000-07:002006-09-27T15:27:00.000-07:00Melissa, thanks! Things *were* pretty funky, but ...Melissa, thanks! Things *were* pretty funky, but now I am at a place where I am happy all the time. It's just part of who I am. *I* think I'm a good mom, lol! Well at least all the kids are happy sorts, good humour and lots of laughing and dancing...so that's a good sign right?S'meehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12101359854973455791noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11515373.post-1159384518001537772006-09-27T12:15:00.000-07:002006-09-27T12:15:00.000-07:00I am so sorry it has taken me so long to get here....I am so sorry it has taken me so long to get here. You actually sound alot like me.<BR/><BR/>I have a good man too who loves me in spite of myself. It is hard to believe he sticks with me through all my crazy ideas and stuff.<BR/><BR/>It is hard to know if we are being great or ruining our kids! Am I too strict, too lenient, do I spank too much? <BR/><BR/>I guess all that matters is that we are genuinely are doing our best. I can tell from your posts that you are. It's the intent that will matter.<BR/><BR/>It's easy to get down on ourselves especially when someone else is saying, "ya, it is your fault." Sometimes, I just want to hear that it is going to be ok and that I am a dang fine mom!<BR/><BR/>I sure hope you are having a happy day. Keep your chin up!hi, it's me! melissa chttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05280379007196906037noreply@blogger.com